The Secret Continues

The hardest thing about keeping a blog is looking at this blank space and starting to write. Usually i come up with inspiration when i am nowhere near a computer.. and this week has been no exception.

Now as i have stated in the past i am still part time.. keeping my main femme days to weekends due to work commitments.. but this weekend was diffrent. I had a friend come up from down south to stay with me, who is none the wiser to why i packed up my old life and fled on the first carrage out of there (when i say carrage i mean train) and it was horrible. Not seeing my friend, that was wonderfull. Im talking about having to have 'boy mode' activated and not being able to be myself.

Now i know what your saying... "but katie, haven't you done this for years" Well yes i have, thanks for asking mystery voice of the internet. Seeing as i have become more confident and self accepting of myself, i live for the weekend.. but this one is full of pictures of male me which i hate. I dont like how i look and dont get me started on hiding femme mannerisms. Even the little things like my nails (which didn't go unnoticed) i had to be aware of.

This fills me with a little bit of fear, as i know one day im going to come out to my parents, but in the meantime when i meet them i will have to try and hide things.. and my mum is like a hawk! she will suss me out :/

But the only way is up as the song goes..

I recieved an email this week from susansplace.. to which i had subbmitted this site to when i first set it up (and then forgot about the submission) So im there now.. on a link site... so people can actually find me *GULP*

That combined with my youtube channel to which i have just posted my 1st video.. Its terrible though. I had tried to edit it with the youtube video editor which has let me down :( So there i am trying to be all cool and 1st timey and i  look like a bit of an idiot bobbing up and down like a rubber duck in the bath. But its there, its done and there is nothing i can do about it now

Ill put the link on here somewhere (if i can figure it out)

And i do promise to update more (got a new phone and laptop, so if i dont i have just wasted a lot of monies!!)

Katie

xxx