So today i decided to take the next step and see a Gender Therapist. I know there is an amazing community online where people can talk and share stories but its time i went to a specialist. Tomorrow i am going to make the call and book my 1st appointment. Feeling slightly apprehensive about it, nervous and this is all before i have even booked the appointment.
Its started bringing up feelings and forgotten memories. For example, i remember when i was 4 or 5 and i would be at my cousins house. We were playing dares. I tried everything to get them to dare to me to wear girls clothes for the night. I remember daring one of them to be a boy for the night just to see if they would dare the opposite back. I was dissapointed when they never. Or when i bought a dress just to wear under my clothes not for sexual gratification but just so i could feel more girly.
This is all good. Good for me. Good for my dear friend who i have burdened with all this for years. Now im going to someone who can really help... not that she hasn't but a professional who deals with gender issues on a day to day basis. This is where the future is unknown, but ups and downs i know i have to keep strong.. So as a note to myself
KEEP STRONG!
Katie
Xx
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