Belated updates

So hey everyone hadn't made a blog post in a while so just thought i would update everyone on my progress so far.

So i've had my 1st appointment with the Gender Clinic here. and if im being honest i feel mixed about it.
I didn't really know what to expect going into the meeting, i mean i knew what we were going to be talking about but i find the prospect of opening up like that to someone new (and a bit of a psychatrist) hard.

I remeber sitting in the waiting room my heart was pounding about what was going to happen but the physican was really nice, asked me lots of questions that i knew the answers to in my head i knew what i wanted but the words wouldnt come out right... i must of looked and sounded like a gibbering wreck.

But ive been referred to the next psychatrist for a more in depth probing of my mind.. could be a few months wait tho. I realised that for most clinics there is a long wait and thats just testimony to how many people there are out there just like us.

Now theres a twist in the tale, the next day i got fired from work, now this is a hinderence to going full time as i now need to look for a new job and get job secure before i let them know. I only say this as noone out there is going to help me, not my parents , my friends are skint and i need to be 100% self sufficient.
I know people say on other youtube channels that its hard, and it is. Noone tells you about the little things that just make you, well you.

Style errors , and im sure we have all had them, looking back at some old photos i cringe at the thought of what i was wearing, but its all about growing and developing into the girl YOU! want to be.

Dont let anyone tell you diffrent..if you want to wear an alice band on your head.. Do it! As long as you feel right.

A plus side however to not working at the moment is living Full time, without the constrictions of work. Which i am LOOOVING!
Even taking those steps and if need be, pushing yourself out the door in more and more femm attire to say to the world (and more importantly to yourself) I am here, this is me finally. Dont like it move on.

And for those still worrying about these things then trust me when i say that yes there are time when someone looks at me and i fluff a little, but these people wont remeber you in 5 minutes time, heck ill be supprised if they remeber you 2 minutes later... this is the nature of humans... focus on yourself not on others.

As for my parents.. they still haven't really come round. I think my dad has however started looking at some of the links i sent him with information i hope he passes this information onto my mum as its wierd not being able to just pick up the phone to them.. this time i truley feel i am on my own... Wierd or what??

Also (and i know its a long shot) if theres any scottish girls should come across this i would love for you to get in touch and say hello. I did put an ad on gumtree but all i got was responses like:-

- Wots(sic) a tgirl
- Respectable businessman looking to meet you
- Hey baby, send me photos for hot nsa

Now any ad that starts - Just looking for friends i wouldnt think oh i know ill try and get in her panties!! Its just pathetic in my opinion :(

K
xx