The potatoes did it!

Oh dear, do I feel fragile today! Last night was vodka night.. ended up a little worse for wear shall we say!

Todays recovery has been aided by me watching an absurd number of transition videos on YouTube. Some I've seen before others are new. But one thing is parent apparent from watching them... I want to get started now!!

I know transitioning takes time...years intact so it looks like aswell as confidence, I also need to learn to be patient. Grr

On the plus side, both my housemates are cool with what's going to happen, had a jolly good chat last night . So this Friday Katie is going on the razzle dazzle in town. I can't wait. This is going to be one help of a long week!

I'm sure there will be pictures, I don't think ill put them on here yet tho... Don't think I'm ready to let them loose on the world... Even if it is on a secret little blog that noone reads. I'm not bothered either , this is for me. I decide when things happen and what goes on here!

Anyways, away for dinner and chat with a few girlies, so a good night ahead :D

Xxxx

An appointment is all i ask!

So today was a day of try try try! Been trying to re-book myself in at the local gender clinic. This is after i failed to give the right post code last time i called... but i couldn't get through.

No matter when i phoned, i kept getting the answering machine. I do hope they answer tomorrow feel like i need to really get moving now. I have really been pushing myself alot lately, to build confidence and hopefully this will help me achieve my next milestone point.

I know its a poor post this one, but an update none the less....

Katie

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The Sunday Update

As part of my continuing journey and commitment to this blog, i have decided to update at least once a week and seeing as i tend to do very little on a Sunday, then this shall be my day to update.

Alot has happened this week. After living in basic poverty the past couple of months, i finally got paid from my new job. Which has perked me up to no avail. They say money cant buy you happiness, but it certinally makes me feel alot better. So after paying all my bills off, and sorting out financies, i had just enough spare to have not only a night out, but also to do a little shopping :)

So i got some new jeans, a pair of boots that are fast becoming my favorite.I was bold as i could be and bought them in a shop, no silly excuses about them being for a girlfriend. Just bought them and paid. I dont know why i succumb to 'the fear' as i had no trouble. I know that if i take the little steps then the big steps will be alot easier when it comes around.

So Friday came around and it was the staff night out. I got my nails done, straightened my hair, got my new jeans and boots on. I teamed it with a male tshirt thats a bit androgynous and a little cardigan. I had a BALL!! seriously i felt amazing. The only problem is i get very loose lipped when i get a drink in me and i hate to think what i was telling people. Oh well.. keep my head high and carry on!

Today was another good day, Went out to the shops, nails, hair, and femme outfit on.. I still had the comfort of having my headphones on, to block out the sound and stares of the world. But its something im going to have to get used to... day by day (Oh my i sound like a recovering addict)

Ok, i still haven't had the guts and gusto to go out in a dress... but that day is coming.. i know as i can feel it.

So with confidence levels building and feeling more comfortable in myself i cant wait for my next pay day when i will have more money for myself and i can get a new wig, a better one that costs a little more than the one i have now... oh and new clothes of course :)

I would also like to say Hi to anyone who is actually reading this (why anyone would want to ). I dont bite and would love to hear from anyone, either in comments or via my email

Katiegl84@gmail.com

Katie

xxxx

A refreshing update!

Ok, so apparently i have already managed to let this blog slip into the realms of abandonment... Im sorry blog, ill try harder.

Also has happened since my last post. I have moved into a house with 2 other (real)girls, changed job completely and had a shopping spree.

So all is going well, apart from progression forwards. I know what i want to do , but i still have trouble finding the strength within to do it. I feel tho i have got better, and have started wearing nail varnish to work, and femme jeans.. Got some looks but ill survive, its character building right??

But what i dont like is people talking about me when im standing right in front of them.
1 its rude!
2.its really rude
3.who the hell are you to tell me how to live my life!

but its hard to stand up to people at the time, but trust me, there day will come, they will get there comeuppance mark my words



Katie
xx